Five hours a day, six days a week, forty-six weeks a year: the schedule of my life. I was a competitive swimmer. Even when friends had told me that I was wasting my time and I didn’t have enough time for fun, I knew swimming was one of the best choices I ever made. It gave me some of the greatest times of my life. Though getting up at 4:00AM was not my favorite, I loved the sport and the way swimming made me feel.
My dreams crashed one day, 5 years ago. A few weeks into the season, I started feeling a sharp pain in my shoulders whenever I took a stroke. At practice one day I stopped, got out and asked if I could stretch because something just did not feel right. My coach helped me to stretch out my shoulders for 5 minutes before I got back in and finished the practice, still feeling slight pain. A few days later the pain came back. This time it felt worse. I began to slow my strokes down. I stopped doing my favorite stroke, butterfly. It felt like hundreds of tiny knives were being stabbed in my shoulders if I did more than 1,000 yards, which is barely a warm-up.
At meets, I began having to drop events because it was too painful. I remember crying to my mother during a meet because I had to scratch out of the 100-yard butterfly. I felt like the one thing I loved most in the world was being taken from me.
My parents decided it would be best if we went to a doctor and discover the reason my shoulders were in so much pain. The doctors told me I had loose ligaments. My shoulders and back had not built enough strength because I was still growing. For the pain to completely go away, I would have to wait until I grew but for now I was to stay in physical therapy trying to gain as much strength in my back and shoulders as possible. When my coaches heard the outcome they “wanted” to try and help in anyway they could but swimmers who were actually going to succeed were the priority. I felt like I had gone from the star of the show to a chorus girl no one would think about.
My dad was not happy with the coaches’ attitude. He told me I had a choice, I could stay with my current team or we could find another program. I remember sitting in the black-leather chair in my dad’s office, crying, trying to decide what would be the best decision. My dad and mom both kept telling me the same thing, “Sweetie, we know it’s hard and that you don’t want to leave your friends, but you aren’t getting the proper attention you need from your coaches. We want you to have the best experience you can with swimming and the coaches need to help you with that; if the coach doesn’t pay any attention to you, how are you supposed to improve?”
I decided it would be best if I changed teams even though it was not easy leaving some of my friends. I switched to a nationally ranked YMCA team. The first day of practice at my new team was terrifying. I spent the whole day at school fretting about how it would be. My mother picked me up from school and we drove to practice in complete silence. I remember her parking the car in the lot and asking me if I truly wanted to switch teams. Slightly nodding and saying shakily, “Yes, I want to do what’s best for me,” I opened the door and got out. She followed. After meeting the head coach and getting a tour of the facility, he introduced me to the coach of my training group and the kids that would eventually become my second family. I remember being bombarded with question like “Do you know so-and-so?” and people just being so welcoming that all of my fears disappeared. I knew I had made a decision that would make me better in more that just my swimming.
I stayed with the new team for the rest of my year-round career. They taught me to fight through pain and never give up. I started feeling less pain and attending more practices because I could handle it. The new me, in swimming, was able to fight through anything. This past year, I was lucky enough to get the chance to get my National cut and go with the team to Ft. Lauderdale for the YMCA Youth National Championship. Even though I had to miss my senior trip to stay home and train I was rewarded with an amazing time with some of the greatest people I have ever met.
Though the pain never fully went away, I still enjoyed swimming because of the experience and friends I get from it. Even today as a new freshman at SMU, not a part of any team, I still would prefer to swim over running on a treadmill for my work out. My shoulders still hurt when I swim, but I keep going. I keep swimming because I love the sport and the way it makes me feel. I don’t want to give up when the smallest obstacle gets in my way. I want to be able to show the world that I can succeed through thick and thin. Jack Dempsey said, “A champion is someone who gets up, even when he can't” that is what I did and want to continue doing for the rest of my life.